Free will...

So in “Bruce Almighty”, God tells Bruce that he can do everything except alter or influence the free will…we can’t do that…we can’t make anyone fall in love…we can’t make anyone care…we can’t stop someone from leaving or someone from staying for that matter…

I wish I was a writer, singer, dancer, painter… (in that order…I think…)

Simply Romantic...

His hello was the end of her endings
Her laugh was their first step down the aisle
His hand would be hers to hold forever
His forever was as simple as her smile

He said she was what was missing
She said instantly she knew
She was a question to be answered
And his answer was "I do"

Carrie's Poem...Sex and the city...

Answers...

Sometimes it becomes so important to find answers...something that you can cling onto...or something that would make some sense...life's normally not so much about answers as it is about the journey...because you don't really know if you will get to the answers but the journey is what makes you - you...but i am struggling right now...but i still cant make head and tails of things...and i need to put some semblance of order in my life...

Faith...

After the fiasco that happened I still expect him to come for me…to come here just to see me…after all this I still have faith in him…I still have an almost idiotic childlike faith…even after seeing how untrustworthy people are…like my friend says I have to grow up…but what if this is the basis of who I am…how do I change that except to be prepared for the heartache that follows after trusting people…

Sad Sad Day...

I am really sad and there’s this sinking feeling which is just horrible…which makes you feel like hiding yourself under layers of blanket in a place no one can get to ever…and its forever dark and you don’t ever see the light…

Objectivity...

All of a sudden I want to write something…is it possibly to be completely honest with self…that would mean not lying or trying to rationalize…brutal truth about yourself…things and people in your life…is that at all possible…are we capable…capable enough…

I have always believed in complete honesty to myself…but I have my doubts…a part of it could be ignorance…but I am too pompous to believe that I am ignorant especially about my own feelings…then am I biased…not objective…and how would you define objectivity in this case…considering the fact that that the sick and the healer are one and the same person…is it possible to be absolutely objective…Amartya Sen says that the identity we assume at any given moment decides our world view at that moment…is it possible to have different identities but the same world view…or alternatively is it possible to be absolutely objective but have different world views…that’s conflicting because absolutely means “one”…

Even if I could keep my feelings and emotions aside could be a third person viewing myself…what world view would that third person assume to bring in objectivity…

I am an idiot...

Technically I have been more depressed…technically I have gone through this before…and that’s why I am a fool to be doing this again…

Trust…faith…believe is all so relative…I don’t trust my decision to trust…