Blessings and regrets...

The biggest blessing God bestowed on me in the last decade was that though I had a very tough time many times, but I always had someone with me, to give support, to love to take care and to help me get through it. Whenever I think about the past ten years or so of my life, this is one thing for which I thank God every day and I feel really blessed. It fills me with positive hope and radiance.

My biggest regret – I haven’t been able keep all those people with me. Some out of my own stupidity where I was to foolish to understand the complexity of things and some just due to circumstances. Some people are still in my life but I am not a part of their remembrances. I know it’s selfish but that hurts.

Hopefully where relationships are concerned, this decade will be better.

A couple of lines, though corny, are still my favorite –

Are you a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime?

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.

When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. Sometimes they die.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. Your need has been answered, and now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real!

But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Men in the last decade…

The thought occurred to me when I saw my roommate’s American friend lounging in my living room with her Indian boyfriend while my roommate and her mom were in one room and I was in the other…apparently the American has come all the way to India to find love and so the two couldn’t take their hands off each other…


Now maybe I am a prude and old school…but a guy who can make out on a couch in a stranger’s living room with an elder in the next room can hardly be the right sort with whom you can even think of spending a part of your life leave alone a lifetime…

Unfortunately apparently that’s what guys are these days…while I am all in favor of sexual freedom and promiscuity…but when it comes to the man I would want to even consider spending my life with…I really hope he has a little more sophistication and sensibility then that…and also I guess, is more of a gentleman…

I have met men in the past who make it clear in the very first meeting that all they are interested in is a fling and nothing serious…take it or leave it…then the other who would get into anything only if they are actually interested and look forward to an actual relationship…then those who cant make up their minds, dont want to put in any effort…the worst are actually who fool around-don’t want to commit-leave the girl hanging by a hook…the first and second types are the honest types whether straight or complete rascals and are worth having around but the later two are the ones every girl who can think her weight’s worth should stay away from…trust me everyone deserves to be respected…

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A couple of my all time fave lines –


Kabhi kisi ko muqamal jahan nahi milta

Kahin zameen nahi to kahin aasman nahi milta

I think these lines describe life perfectly and in a good way at that…life is a search for that “muquamal jahan” which in all probability does not exist…

I love my life and the search that it is…

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Life has become too tough...I want a break...

Not for family viewing...

So I had some problem with my car recently. Particularly there was some noise in the gear box especially in the first two gears. When I gave my car of servicing last week I particularly told the mechanic the problem and he assured me that he would look into it. When he returned my car and I asked him he said there was a lot of dust which had accumulated in the gear box which was causing the problem and they had fixed it now. A couple of days ago I again heard the noise and called the service station. The mechanic has the cheek to tell me –
1. Such noise comes sometimes

2. You must not have pressed the clutch properly

The bloody bastard assholes motherfuckers that (most) men are think that no woman in the world can tell what’s wrong with a bloody car and they can get all condescending.

Even after living for thirty years I can’t for the love of my life decipher such baseless arrogance that a bloody second class pass mechanic, a man, can dish out to me when rest assured I will know more about a car’s mechanism then he will ever in his stinking futile moronic life.

Jhootha hi sahi...

Currently tripping on...

Mujhe chhod do
Mujhe thaam lo
Kho jaane do
Mera naam lo
Sab theek hai
Ho jayega….

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Mujhse zara baatein karo
Halki zara raatein karo

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ek dost ka chehra
ya phir naquaab do na....

Yay...

Off to my fave city during Diwali and yes it is Delhi...inspite of all odds I just love Delhi at Diwali time...its just so festive...all the lights, sweets and even crackers...its all to die for... and i am going to Delhi for Diwali i think after almost 7 years :)

Sometimes i wish life would give me a second chance...so that i can have with me all the people i love and i could say to them...

तुम्ही से हैं मेरी नींदे

ना भी हो तो क्या

तुम्ही से हैं मेरी  बातें

ना भी हो तो क्या

कहने दो तारों को कहानी अनकही

ना जा अभी...  

(Euphoria)